I recently started reading Letters from a Stoic by Seneca. It was recommended by a coworker and friend, a smart man who has his shit together. Also, I immediately recognized a great opportunity to sound impressive when asked by others, “What are you reading?”
One page into Seneca’s first letter, the sage was already making an impression. He wrote, “Nothing, to my way of thinking, is better proof of a well ordered mind than a man’s ability to stop just where he is and pass some time in his own company.” This has some real clout. And it also started me worrying. Because I’m certainly not the owner of a well-ordered mind; and lately, I haven’t been stopping and passing any time whatsoever in my own company.
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That’s because every time the opportunity arises for some passing of said time in said company, I whip out my cell phone and peck hungrily at its screen. This is also a revelation: Seneca didn’t know it at the time (at least I think he didn’t), but his teachings would someday apply to our tech-obsessed generation. I find it disturbing that I can’t take a shit and spend that little amount of time in my own company. I have to check my Instagram account, which, even as I’m opening it up after doing my business but before wiping, I know I care not a jot about. Not that my thoughts beyond the world of likes and follows will be goldmines of introspective thought and philosophical debate — but I’d rather learn more about myself by pondering who invented the sliding metal bathroom stall lock than blankly scrolling through my cousin’s shitty vacation photos.
Not to sound alarmist, but reports from Kleiner, Perkins, Caufield and Buyers and the team behind an app called Locket found in 2013 that cell phone users check their phones on average between 110 and 150 times a day. That’s a lot of moments spent staring at a tiny screen rather than the world around us (or the questions inside of us). A report (this one from Pew Research Center’s Internet & American Life Project) showing that 58 percent of American adults now own smartphones, a number that’s increased from 35 percent in 2011, proves those numbers aren’t going anywhere but up. And, as Jimmy Carr, author of The Shallows: What the Internet is Doing to Our Brains, told Christian Science Monitor in an article about how smartphones are changing our lives, “What I don’t think we fully realize is that we’re altering in a deep way our ability to pay attention, our ability to be contemplative, to be reflective — the things that we might be losing.”
Idle thoughts have been called the Devil’s playground, but if that’s the case, I call the swingset.
So I decided to make a real effort in the spirit of Seneca’s “well ordered mind” and fight the urge to look at my phone during every idle moment of the day. It was way harder than I expected. Turns out I pull out my phone all the time, every day: Twitter feed while waiting for the slow elevator, Instagram on the aforementioned commode, checking for a text every block on the walk home from work. I even check my email and texts very first in the morning as I emerge from crusty-eyed sleep. At first, it hurt a little, jamming my hand in my pocket like a junkie, then becoming self aware, prying my fingers off the phone while it sang its siren song of mindless bliss. My brain really wanted something to do that didn’t take work, and I realized I felt tense and anxious without constant communication to my friends, my family, my girlfriend. But I rebelled against the robotic overlord.